"That boobs a goner..."

These are not my words but the words of my breast surgeon! Just as the family had been pretty much packed and ready to head out for our backpacking trip the phone rang and it was Dr. Sanford's office with the MRI results. Who knew I would actually get the results the same day of the test? Unfortunately, the results are not too good either. The doctor stated that all four quadrants of the left breast are littered with lesions and there are more suspicious lymph nodes. Dr. Sanford referred me to Dr. Smiley, a medical oncologist (not sure that is the correct spelling of her name but as Naomi stated saying her name just makes you feel better). So now I am meeting with the oncologist today (Friday) to talk about chemotherapy treatment before surgery rather than the original plan of surgery first. What this also means is that the entire left breast needs to be removed, hence the title "that boobs a goner!". There is some good news too. There is no cancer in the right breast and Dr. Sanford does not feel it needs to be removed (it is still an option for me to remove the right one as well to be on the safe side...and if I chose to do reconstruction to have matching boobs as well:) The backpacks are still packed and sitting in the living room (if only we had a garage)and maybe we will just keep that way till next weekend. I must also admit I wasn't looking forward to camping in the rain so postponing the trip may have a bright side. I've been trying to read "Jesus Calling" by Sarah Young. I must admit I really have to try and overcome the feelings I have of the "fortune cookie" writings or the fact that this book is the new "Prayer of Jabez" but it did lead me to this verse this morning...."Until now you have not asked for anything in my name. Ask and you will receive, and your joy will be complete." John 16:24 I've been asking for peace in that the decisions we make are the "right" ones and that I can move on feeling confident about it. The MRI was very conclusive, black and white and the radiologist and breast surgeon are not second guessing anything. For me, that's an answered prayer.